Well, I don't quite know what I was expecting going into this book, but it wasn't what I got.

Hello everyone!

I am back with another book review, Suicide Notes from Beautiful Girls by Lynn Weingarten.

The story follows June, a girl who finds out her ex-best friend, Delia, committed suicide, that she burned herself to death in her stepfather's shed. But despite the falling out they had a year ago, June doesn't think Delia would do that, especially not with the fire she was terrified of. At a midnight memorial with some of Delia's other friends, June is approached by her boyfriend, Jeremiah. He is convinced that Delia was murdered and asks June to help him find out who killed her and why.

I don't want to say too much about the synopsis of this book because of spoilers so I think I'll leave it at that.

As I mentioned earlier, I wasn't sure what to expect from this book. I thought it would be a sort of a typical teen suicide, something akin to Thirteen Reasons Why perhaps. But this book was more atmospheric, I guess you could call it. Nothing was what it seemed and you didn't know who you could trust. Whether or not you believed that Delia was murdered, Weingarten builds up a sense of unease throughout the book.

I was drawn in by the storyline, yes, but some of the time I found myself still reading because I couldn't put the book down. Weingarten's writing style was engrossing and almost magnetic. I distinctly remember reading parts and then re-reading them because they were so well done. You could really tell that she put as much thought into diction as she did plot. She kept the pace at the perfect speed, no time for lulls but not break-neck.

As we learn more about Delia and June, I found myself nervous that Delia would turn out to be your typical idealized girl, somehow mysterious and real at the same time. You've read them before. For a part, Delia is like that. But then we get into a much deeper, darker side of Delia. A side that has been hardened against the world and that will stop at nothing to protect herself and the people she loves.

There were some parts of this book I didn't love and could maybe have been thought out a bit more, but I was so engrossed, I was in for the long haul.

As the book comes to a close and it is revealed what really happened, I am left with so many questions. But I know I won't get any answers, the ending is left fairly open and assumptions have to be made. We won't know what happens with June at the end, although I feel like I can make a pretty good guess.

Overall, a book as intoxicating as Delia and June's relationship is toxic.